A Home I Carry Within: My First Christmas Away

The lights twinkle in the distance, tiny sparks of color dancing to the rhythm of a song I can’t hear. I stand by the window, watching the cold fog up the glass, drawing patterns that vanish as quickly as they appear. I see my tired eyes in the reflection, but they’re not empty.

This will be my first Christmas away from home. I hadn’t thought much about it until now, but the silence around me made it impossible to ignore. Before, everything was different. There was laughter, intertwined voices, the sound of wrapping paper torn open, and that unmistakable aroma announcing that everything was right, that I was exactly where I belonged.

But this year, my home feels different. No voices are filling the spaces, no scents embracing me with memories. It’s just me, my half-unpacked suitcase, and a small tree I bought to feel something familiar.

I left everything behind because something inside me screamed that I had to fly and that a world was waiting for me. And I don’t regret it. I’ve discovered things I never imagined, and faced challenges that revealed parts of myself I didn’t know existed. But now, as the clock inches toward midnight, I feel the weight of distance in every breath.

I close my eyes and, in my mind, I draw those moments I long for: the table overflowing with food, the hugs, the comforting words. And though I can’t be there, I feel something warm in my chest. A memory can ache, but it can also be a refuge.

I decide to light a candle. I don’t know why, but something about that tiny flame comforts me. It’s as if it reminds me that, even far away, I’m not disconnected. Every step I take on this new journey is an extension of what I’ve learned, of those who taught me to dream.

I raise my glass, not for what I miss, but for what’s still to come. Because even though this is my first Christmas away from home, it’s also the first where I understand that home isn’t always a place. Sometimes, it’s a sigh we keep inside, a memory that stays with us, or a hope that guides us.

And with that, I smile. I’m not alone. I carry with me every laugh, every hug, every promise. And I know this is just the beginning of something big.

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